I got to spend a couple hours with two of my awesome friends (Katie and Will) tonight :) To say the least…I loved it! Had so much fun, I’ve missed them both. With Katie being in CHINA (yes, china) for about 10 days, my whole seeing her days got thrown out of whack. But I think it’s back. :) And Will, well he’s never getting rid of me. Since we are going to the same college :D But I wish Katie was coming to UCF with us :(
38948.) the only reason i'm still alive is because of my boyfriend. i'm so grateful that i have him. he was there for me when no one else was. he's been my best friend and i never even realized until everyone else was gone. i'm so scared our relationship will end and i will lose him. i can't lose him. i need him. i need to be with him forever. i want to be with him forever. i don't ever want to have to get this close to anyone else again. he knows every single thing about me. the only real best friend i've ever had. we've only been in a relationship for three months but we've been friends for three years. i feel too young to feel this way about someone. sometimes it scares me how much i like him. he's my first boyfriend. i love him.
Hey there kiddo. Keep your chin up. I know things are hard right now, but they will get better. You are a brilliant, beautiful person and you will make it. I know that you've had your share of hardships, but hey, you made it through didn't you? So I'm quite positive that you can make it through this. You will go to college. You will be great at what you want to do. You are always good enough for your friends. And you will be happy.
So, don't give up. Your life is really just begining and you have a bright future infront of you.
Oh, and p.s.
Well thank you. I’m trying to work on all this negativity I have. Just a lot is going on in my life. And the only one I can really complain to is my bf (poor him) & on tumblr. Life just hasn’t been very nice to me or my family recently.
I want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall & make all the girls jealous. I want someone who would sing to me at random moments. Someone who is more goofy than romantic. A boy who would throw stuffed animals at me when I'm acting dumb. Someone who would bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old playstation games and then let me win. A guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh. He'd play with my hair all the time & surprise me with 25 cent rings. Someone who I could share lollipops with & lay on a blanket with to count the stars. We'd buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other & squirt water guns at each other in the house. But mostly ; some who would be my best friend & would never break my heart. He would just always make me smile
So as it stands right now, I don't have enough money for school.
If this doesn’t change, I’m not going to college next year. Right now, I’m really thinking about it. And I hate that thought.
Being smart does nothing to help.
Also there are so many people right now that this past school year complained about not having enough money for school. I will not name, names. But F-U-C-K Y-O-U! All of you that said that. Because you all thought that my family was loaded. Well guess what we aren’t. We have no money. Right now my parents have about $80 in their account. And it’s just going to get worse because our family income has been cut in half. So fuck you all who said that you don’t have enough money for school. Because you are getting money from the government. But the government doesn’t care about me. Being low middle class, they don’t care. They don’t care that my family has a house payment, car payments, my parents have their own student loans, they have normal bills. They just don’t care. They only care about you people that are considered “low” class. Well once again, fuck you.
see the tear in the dog’s eye .. yeah I know some people will see this and just scroll over but do you think it’s worthwhile just filling your tumblr with stuff that has no point rather then making people aware of their acts It only takes a button press :(
Went with Cole and saw Green Lantern. It was ok. Totally worth it to see Ryan Reynolds in a pair of tight white underwear. And a great excuse to get to sit next to Cole for 2 hours, having his arm around me.
Then just sat in the truck for awhile and talked and cuddled. That was my favorite part of the night.